Finally getting to know what's going on...how the bosses connect and their relationships. And until im kena questioned, then i realised i'm being treated like a clown. When questioning comes, arrows fly~~~ and so, i've been a 'murderer' when im just following instructions. oh well...no1 to blame except my own stupidity and lack of polished sight.

Been living in illusion for the past 2 weeks. Certain behaviour popped up. And i fd myself in a state i've only experienced once before. I keep reminding myself, keep myself in track and lead my life as per normal. Couldnt really explain my behaviour. But somehow, rationality tells me its time to stop and disillusion from all that. Somewhat, i've imagined stepping out just last week, and i dont see any difficulty in doing it with ease. Yet 1 week down the road, i realised it can be upsetting. lol. Either i overestimated myself or i underestimated the situation. oh well...

point of time, when im just tired with myself, tired of me.