Almost been a year

Happened to browse through all my blogs bookmark, just checking out who's still 'alive' in the no-longer-IN thing - blogging. Haha..with each read either myself or my friends, i was reminded how much we and our lives have changed over a short period of less than a year.

As much as we all missed the good old times, certain things are gone forever. What remains is the good old memory still etched in our minds. That regular day, that regular gang, that regular place where friendships are formed and where echos of our screams, laughter and encouragement still lingers on... Climbing pals, you are all NOT forgotten. You know who you are and dont doubt it. Yes, you.

I guess everyone is slowly moving on, at different speed to the different stages of life. Friends hitched, friends married, friends being daddy/mummy, friends finding their directions in life...and also friends who stay put. With more than 50% of our time spent working, leaving us with limited amount of time for ourselves and the other important people of our lives, it's hard to keep up as often as we would love to. I guessed it's a unspoken understanding that we all do the best we can to keep up with everyone's life even if we no longer meet that often or talk about our lives through the night. Not keeping in contact also does not mean you are forgotten. We know, we're frenz 4eva, regardless of whatever.

I guessed i used to write alot coz i've really been thinking deeply about life and it's purpose. About human and it's ugliness. About events and all those fun or ridiculous stuffs. Perhaps hanging on and being overly stubborn over certain people and stuffs. Probably also hooked on writing (or typing). To sum it up, just a kid struggling to grow up from her little ideal world of aspirations to the unexpected big world of lies and disappointment.

Haha..i guessed i've grown to accept the pragmatic world with all the imperfections. Im no longer angry or as affected by all the 'unfairness' at work or life. No longer overly disappointed for more than a day. No longer that fresh green so eagar to perform and overdeliver. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing though. I guess i just know that certain aspirations are just not going to happen in the current environment, that i no longer know where im going anymore. Or more of, can i even proceed? That said, im still happy with my life. Tho' lacking in a direction and objective for now, im happie. Or at least, i think im happier than before.

Having very clear objectives all along until last year, and also seriously pursuing them, i dont feel happier. I guess you win some you lose some. Now Im lost at where to go...lost in my life...but yes, im happy. :) and i guess, that's something worth celebrating. :)