The big and little things
It feels good to hear your name in a public address, (of coz for good reasons)..but that would also mean a further add of pressure and light on the shoulders...especially when you know you might not be doing well the coming months..oh well..cant help it to add in a: "With great powers, come great responsibility" - i am superwoman!! *wan sui wan sui wan wan sui!* xD
Been wondering about life and work recently. Especially after the CNY meetup with frens and spring cleaning when i happened to read through some letters. I was reminded of dreams and my seek for idealism in life. Was reminded of the kind of ambitious and headstrong spirits i used to have just awhile ago.
My fren used to share with me the juggling of the 5 balls - Family, Friends, Love, Health and Work, with Work represented by a rubber ball. Family, Friends, Love and Health are all fragile glass balls. Once dropped, it's broken or cracked and you would never be able to mend it to what it was. For awhile, work keeps bouncing back as i strived to play it the best i could..then, i lost meaning in it....and then again, im playing with the bouncing ball, hard. Slowly slowly...im learning the art of making the ball take longer to bounce back or even block it off when necessary.. Im finally starting to juggle the 5 balls of life in a more balanced manner...it felt great..though im not yet successful in my career.
Why is my title the 'big and small things'. The big things, i have yet to achieve. And they are also the cause of distress. The little things like a great run...having breakfast with my parents...laughing my head off a great show..singing to my heart's content..and laughing at my own silly comments/actions..makes my day. For now, its the little things in life that make me happy; the big things bringing me down. I wanna enjoy this feeling tonight.... :)
It feels great..when you know you are starting to change what you' wanted to change about yourself. I dont have to be the stronger person whom i used to work towards..it's ok not to be the strongest. It's ok to fear. It's ok to be upset, just like it's ok to be happie. Im having scattered thoughts, ideas and emotions..but somehow, i feel im in the right direction. I feel i should be on my way soon... patience... :)
Been wondering about life and work recently. Especially after the CNY meetup with frens and spring cleaning when i happened to read through some letters. I was reminded of dreams and my seek for idealism in life. Was reminded of the kind of ambitious and headstrong spirits i used to have just awhile ago.
My fren used to share with me the juggling of the 5 balls - Family, Friends, Love, Health and Work, with Work represented by a rubber ball. Family, Friends, Love and Health are all fragile glass balls. Once dropped, it's broken or cracked and you would never be able to mend it to what it was. For awhile, work keeps bouncing back as i strived to play it the best i could..then, i lost meaning in it....and then again, im playing with the bouncing ball, hard. Slowly slowly...im learning the art of making the ball take longer to bounce back or even block it off when necessary.. Im finally starting to juggle the 5 balls of life in a more balanced manner...it felt great..though im not yet successful in my career.
Why is my title the 'big and small things'. The big things, i have yet to achieve. And they are also the cause of distress. The little things like a great run...having breakfast with my parents...laughing my head off a great show..singing to my heart's content..and laughing at my own silly comments/actions..makes my day. For now, its the little things in life that make me happy; the big things bringing me down. I wanna enjoy this feeling tonight.... :)
It feels great..when you know you are starting to change what you' wanted to change about yourself. I dont have to be the stronger person whom i used to work towards..it's ok not to be the strongest. It's ok to fear. It's ok to be upset, just like it's ok to be happie. Im having scattered thoughts, ideas and emotions..but somehow, i feel im in the right direction. I feel i should be on my way soon... patience... :)
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2/13/2009 01:11:00 AM
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