Happy Dio Ho?

Happiness is defined differently by different people. Some measure it through the love they receive from family/frens/partners, some measure it through experiences, some through materials and some through their life achievements. I have always been living my life without regrets as much as i could. To do whatever that would make me and those that matters happy and follow where my heart brings me. Im fortunate enough to have supportive friends i can count on when i have nowhere to turn to or when i just need to be down. They never fails to bring me back on my feet or recharge me for all the challenges ahead. Im even lucky, to have made many frens whom i can play and have lotsa fun and laughter with; laughing our heads off and uttering total nonsense. I count myself lucky too, to meet nice and interesting people (and of coz, bast***s as well) throughout my work experiences so far. I count myself blessed, to earn enough for a decent living and a doting mom who will always be there for me and make sure that im having fun and dun miss my meals.

I like to make myself happy. I like to have fun. I like to utter nonsense. I like to motivate people. I like to make people laugh. I love climbing. I love to drive around. I love freedom. I love to follow my heart. I love my family and friends. I love Scoopz chocomint. I love sashimi. I love music! *yak yak yak*

For awhile, i was caught in this misconception or deviation from how i have been living my life. Sub-consciously, i think i was trying to derive happiness from that special someone. It appeared to myself that im waiting for someone to make me happy. I have forgotten that im in control of my own happiness, my life. I HAVE control over my own happiness. I finally 'wakeup' and recover my life philosophy which is missing for awhile.

Chatted with a couple of frens last night...realised i have grown so much and also areas still lacking. Jing1 Yi4 Zhi4 Zhang3 Yi4 Zhi4. Im glad to have a supportive 'idol' whom i always look up to, and to remind myself that i should not carry over negativity for too long. My idol dont rem or probably have no idea how great an idol she is to me. :) Similar, i guess my buddy have no idea how irritating he can be. LOLX! Feeling really thankful for frens who never give up on me.
One promise i can return in favour : I will not let myself sink into an endless train of negativity again. Never.

I might appear stubborn or even spoiled, but Im the master of my life. I decide where i'll go or what i'd do. I have had enough of 'boundaries' and the unnecessary considerations. It's time to start living again!