Think i'm burnt out. I think and do and think and do until i jus sit there staring at the screen having no idea wth im doing. *blank* And i thought of just let it buang and get packing. lol. What a loser thought. Getting nowhere after like 1 week when i should get it done within 3 days! Perhaps i'm just not cut out for it. Doubts rising. Ya ya, blame it on ur lack of brains or stupidity. I guess i just take more time to learn as my stubborn self cant work without fully understand the whole thing! Its amazing how guys can jus wack by trial and error and get tgs done without really understanding it! Wish i could work that way too..

Obstacles and setbacks supposed to make one stronger. I wonder how much i grew through the past few weeks. Dint think i handle things well. In fact, i think my mind went bonk! LoL. Best. Somewhat i feel tgs happened to squeeze me out...and then, focus on realizing my dream instead of being distracted by things..
What makes me happy then? Haha....when happiness takes a new perspective..Im starting to be enlightened....would you like to join me in this journey of self-fulfillment?