我又错了吗?

Met up and talked to several people recently. I feel stagnant. It's like, i never realise 1++ years has passed, and the year is coming to an end yet again. Yet im still where i am, still who i used to be, still trap in my wheel of thoughts, still trap in the same old problems (with additional ones as time passes), still stuck in situations. The so-called quarter-life crisis is hitting harder and harder each time. The so-called future is beyond sight, beyond light. I feel myself struggling...i know some of my friends are too.....you know...the period when you feel like you are all alone fighting this, the period when you feel like you cannot handle what life has for you..the period when you just wish to leave totally, the easy way out..yet at the back of your mind, you know you cant..and all you could do is kicked a big fuss, scream, shout, bang your head against the wall and then smile and appear brave and alright again.. I think its just the down period....just like sometimes you just suddenly thought that future might be optimistic, when u feel good and when u feel like you-can-do-it kind of mood.

What makes it worse is when you dont have support. When people around you are telling you to be contented. Telling you that this is the way life is. Telling you to be practical, be realistic, be sensible, to grow up and accept it. To compromise. To live within means. To stop dreaming. To wake up. To stop thinking too much and live. Im getting crazy. On one hand, you are already struggling with your own thoughts and beliefs about urself...abt faith..abt trusting urself...you are so unsure, in doubt and lack of confidence..and what you need is that little understanding of your current situation and state, a little nod that they understand and that little support and push to go ahead. Am i wrong to dream? Wrong to explore? Wrong to find the answers to my life's questions? Yes...maybe im crazy to be caught in these cycle of thoughts about life...MY life. But this is what is affecting me, and the answers that i wanna seek. Sometimes you just dun feel like anybody understands at all..People commented that you are just thinking too much...dreaming too much...or even maybe just too much free time....what is wrong? Did i exist in the wrong place altogether???