In the dumps

Falling deeper each day. Seems like my life cycle as always, just perhaps alittle more this time round. Days when out of no reason you are just so tired out. Days when you wish you'll never wake up. Days you wish you'll just disintegrate while lying there. Days when you feel like you are all alone in this planet earth when you know your frens will be there for you. Days when you feel like an alien.

Doesnt make sense. When you make no sense of life. When beings appear to be just part of the earth's motion. You find yourself detaching from yourself and seeing things as a whole motion.
Seems to be digging my own grave. Darker and deeper it goes. Couldnt see whats in front anymore. There seems to be no way out. Yet this might be just part of the cycle once again.
A matter of choice? *shrug* perhaps it doesnt really matter. Doesnt matter when you choose not to hang on nemore. Perhaps 'it' will be back when the time is ripe.