The rise and fall of life

As i grew older, find it harder and harder to be happy. Happy as in, being fully there and being fully happy of a certain situation or outcome. Perhaps life has taught me to be 'humble'. Everytime something make me happy or i feel happy for a certain situation, in my mind somehow, im preparing for something worse to come. Somehow, there's this voice telling me dun be all too happy, the worse is on the way. And many times, it did, especially recently. Either it's a self-fulfilling mindset or life's really like that.

Life's interesting, fun and exciting. Life can be fun, fulfilling and full of laughter. But for the time being, life's just alittle too tiring, demanding and driving me a little crazy. Im so drained from this rise and fall..