Guess it's time to learn to detach myself further.How to further make myself happy by doing things i would like to on my own, and enjoying it when there's noone with you. Cant always expect someone to have the same schedule as you, priorities or the same desire to do certain things. Cant expect things to happen just being proactive. What more, cant always expect people to enjoy your company. They have better company, and you know that.
While people are out having fun, having a great time, you really do feel happy for them too. And for awhile, you forgot about yourself. Forgot that your own happiness is important as well. Then sometimes, you having a great time doing your own stuff you forgot about your friends' happiness. And your mind starts wondering if they are fine, if they are happy and whether they are enjoying what their life brings. Perhaps dreamer is thinking too much. Worrying too much.
And you think to yourself, its not as if you are their only friend. You are not indispensable. Just let it go, let them lead and worry about their own life. Guess i worry too much about others' lives.
Contradicting. And when i dont, people say i'm selfish and dint take into consideration others' feelings. Guess its a matter of striking a balance. The hardest thing of all. When do you know you are crossing the line? Certain point of my life, i feel so tired and sick of finding this balance. Feeling helpless for things that have happened. Though i might not take things that hard like i do in the past, guess a certain degree of disappointment and sadness is still there. And i tell myself, like a zillion times, to be strong and to overcome this, and to grow up. Haha...childish dreamer still dunno how to take of herself, and yet she is trying to take care and worry about people around her. It's weird, but this is what it is. Knowing the best way to take care of people, yet not knowing or lazy to take care of her own. Silly ger.
OH WELL!!!Dreamer is thinking too much again. Think i should go out and get some sun and burn away what's in my head!!!
While people are out having fun, having a great time, you really do feel happy for them too. And for awhile, you forgot about yourself. Forgot that your own happiness is important as well. Then sometimes, you having a great time doing your own stuff you forgot about your friends' happiness. And your mind starts wondering if they are fine, if they are happy and whether they are enjoying what their life brings. Perhaps dreamer is thinking too much. Worrying too much.
And you think to yourself, its not as if you are their only friend. You are not indispensable. Just let it go, let them lead and worry about their own life. Guess i worry too much about others' lives.
Contradicting. And when i dont, people say i'm selfish and dint take into consideration others' feelings. Guess its a matter of striking a balance. The hardest thing of all. When do you know you are crossing the line? Certain point of my life, i feel so tired and sick of finding this balance. Feeling helpless for things that have happened. Though i might not take things that hard like i do in the past, guess a certain degree of disappointment and sadness is still there. And i tell myself, like a zillion times, to be strong and to overcome this, and to grow up. Haha...childish dreamer still dunno how to take of herself, and yet she is trying to take care and worry about people around her. It's weird, but this is what it is. Knowing the best way to take care of people, yet not knowing or lazy to take care of her own. Silly ger.
OH WELL!!!Dreamer is thinking too much again. Think i should go out and get some sun and burn away what's in my head!!!
posted by dReamEr at
5/11/2006 01:06:00 PM
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=) thanks ger...hee..yup, im not always lame k!!! haha... miss u loads!!
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