Magic mirror

"mirror mirror on the wall, show me my naked soul"
And i look in the mirror, i wonder who i really am. Am i who i saw? Am i who i thought i am?

"Be yourself, my friend"
And i wonder who is myself? Am i really being myself? Is myself really all that i imagined to be? Or is it just someone, who i would like to see myself being? Or is it someone, who people see myself to be?

Traits and characteristics i shown, are they really who i really am? Or is it simply just a presentation of someone, that someone, whom everyone is familiar about? Or is it simply that someone whom i wished to be?

*shrug* "perhaps" i said.

Strong, independent, confident....etc. Am i showing all that to myself? Proving to myself that i can do it! I am strong enough to deal with this! I am confident! When perhaps, its just the opposite? When i succeed, guess i feel a sense of satisfaction. I've proven myself wrong about myself. When i dont, i blame myself for being such a weakling.

"Dont be too hard on yourself, dear"
*shrug* "maybe" i replied. And you find yourself useless and lack of motivation in carrying on.

You start questioning the meaning of happiness. You wonder what true happiness means. You doubt the presence of miracle. You start to have doubts about your own capabilities. And you wonder, are you truly making a difference to people and the society? Or are you doing it as it boosts your morale and ego? Such a thin line.

"Stop thinking about questions that never has an answer"
So i should learn to live my life simply? Is it as simple as just being contented?

*shrug* "i have no idea" i remarked.