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Human is the most complex creature on earth. How to learn to deal with all different kinds of such dangerous and horrible creatures? Learn the soft skills of better people and relationship management? Change your mindset and attitude? Change your environment? Adapt and accept the environment in are in? Totally avoid all these as much as you can?
I hate to be a dog. A black dog that one can use to fry your veges. A black dog to protect your owner, get kick around, get command around, and even clean up the house by eating everytg up. You can bark. In fact bark all you like, but nothing gets changed. A black dog in the house of whites.
Fears. To accept and face your deepest fears. To acknowledge your desires and needs. To be true, or at least to yourself. Seriously, if you yourself cannot accept yourself for who you are, accept how you truly feel, acknowledge your emotions and worrys, dont expect others to understand. "OK" is the word. Has always been. To accept who you really are, acknowledge how you really feel and face it, face yourself.
Sometimes, the "if-only-i-can-be-as-??-as-so-and-so..." makes it hard to accept yourself. Obviously, you cant be the 'all-rounder' person in terms of character, the way you want yourself to be. There was a period of time not tooooo long ago when i learnt to love myself more and accept myself for who i am. A totally reverse is happening for now.
Environment and experiences shape a person. Change is the only constant. What to do when you are being hurt by changes in people around you? It's tough to always be "ok". It's tough to be "good" always. I dont like it when i got to be selfish to protect myself from hurt. Seriously, i dunno what to do or how to handle this. Please, please, i dont wish to change for the worse in order to survive the harsh reality. I really dunno how much longer i can last. Coward response - escape and avoid. Best.
I hate to be a dog. A black dog that one can use to fry your veges. A black dog to protect your owner, get kick around, get command around, and even clean up the house by eating everytg up. You can bark. In fact bark all you like, but nothing gets changed. A black dog in the house of whites.
Fears. To accept and face your deepest fears. To acknowledge your desires and needs. To be true, or at least to yourself. Seriously, if you yourself cannot accept yourself for who you are, accept how you truly feel, acknowledge your emotions and worrys, dont expect others to understand. "OK" is the word. Has always been. To accept who you really are, acknowledge how you really feel and face it, face yourself.
Sometimes, the "if-only-i-can-be-as-??-as-so-and-so..." makes it hard to accept yourself. Obviously, you cant be the 'all-rounder' person in terms of character, the way you want yourself to be. There was a period of time not tooooo long ago when i learnt to love myself more and accept myself for who i am. A totally reverse is happening for now.
Environment and experiences shape a person. Change is the only constant. What to do when you are being hurt by changes in people around you? It's tough to always be "ok". It's tough to be "good" always. I dont like it when i got to be selfish to protect myself from hurt. Seriously, i dunno what to do or how to handle this. Please, please, i dont wish to change for the worse in order to survive the harsh reality. I really dunno how much longer i can last. Coward response - escape and avoid. Best.
Being occupied doesnt solve anything, but it does succeed in relieving your mind from all the burdening / depressing thots for awhile.....I need more time, to accept everything as well as coming to terms with them. As always, im trapped in a black hole of infinity, having no solution to get out of it.......honestly and seriously, i hope all these can end soon.
posted by dReamEr at
7/21/2007 10:46:00 PM
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