Reflections 2006 Aug 24th 9.23am

Youngsters nowadays settle for comfort.

Was talking to a group of snrs yday discussed abt our dept family day. Realised they're much more onz than us youngsters. Tho' we wanted the fun, we're all lazy to wait, so we chose other activities instead. THEY, dont care abt waiting, just wana hav fun!! Sets me tking how often we just simple forego the excitement/fun of life for comfort..

Listened to the radio this morning. Heard how high the DJs were and started wondering where have all my energy gone? I imagined myself enjoying and just letting go of some stupid image and just have the fun hell of a time!! LoL..But in reality, im only able to do this once in a while?? Guessed im still image conscious and 'shy' in a way. Too uncomfy showing how i really feel and do what i wana do deep down.

Fear,of many things. Slowly trying to overcome sm. Yup, slowly. But im still unwilling to overcome the pain and water issues. Haha...im not even feeling like trying!!..

Fear, i still couldnt overcome my block to commit to a move. To commit and just GO! Humji i am..but like mr see says, humji-ness is not a crime! xD

Procrastination. Overcame my many years procrasti-n of running. Finally had my 1st run! =) Im glad i did! FINALLY! Few months ago, im determined to overcome this..coz i cldnt stand myself procra- nemore!! A voice in me keep nagging at me to do smtg!i did. I told myself, this time, i must do this. And i commited myself to training regularly, to push myself over my own comfort zone, to persevere, to be disciplined. Of coz', i met angels who supports and encourages me...n cheer me on. Im grateful, realli am.

To my dear running frens out there - we dun have to train or run along side each other..but i wana give you a pat of support at the start and a pat of job well done at the end pt! I wana share such special moments with you... =)

Friends. Friendship undergone certain changes. Still close to heart. Still gg strong. As everyone's life changes, stepping in to the working life, gg overseas, limited time and energy to provide the same kind of attention we used to give, got bogged down by problems...etc..the need to detach, need to mature, need for space, priorities...within these few months, i've grown that much...feel stronger than be4...and i will be stronger..

Birthday. It seems like im decreasingly excited abt it with each yr..(am i getting old?) This yr, having to work on my bday at this phase of my life somehow made me 4got abt my bday. However, my frens did not..^-^

I may have forgotten, but dear frens...still rem...even just an sms sends warmth to my heart. Thks to my best fren for her v v early bday present to target my need for a backpack!! *muacks!* Thank you dear ah ma niki for the long-D call!! I was indeed surprised and happy! So glad to hear from you again...and i realised how much i actually miss you and 4ss...*sobzz*. Many things had happened and changed in 4ss...v drastics one even esp for some of us. We'll stay strong ya? May everyone be blessed..HANG ON!!!

Thkz MCL & MMH for the sweet surprise on sunday! *hugzz* Realli dint expect it coming, but im glad it did! ^-^ You M-s are such angels in my life nowadays..=P Thks so much for everytg!

Sistas still in contact despite my MIA-ing recently coz of sm changes in my life. Thks for all d understanding gers!! Love ya loads!! =)

Buddy, unexpectedly (oops) been keeping up with me...staying in touch..=) im happy and may this continue ok my dear twin buddy! lol.. Thks for the bday treat too! *hugzz*

Thks my old fren for the fine dining treat and the surprise at the restaruant..All the food taste fantastic!!and yes, you succeeded in surprising me..i AM surprised..and the atmosphere is great there!! =P Thks for d songs you sang for me as well...been such a longgg time since we do this togather...=)

Sms-es from pals as far as those whom i havent met up for many many years. Im still rem..=) Life's great with great pals like u all ard!!!

Self. I've stopped reading up self-improvement bks nowadays...i've stopped TRYING to improve myself to a better person in my perspective of doing what should be the way....Currently, im jus being myself..(finally) doing tgs more out of what i feel like..

Being bad to pple i dun feel gd for. Bochup in certain situations, indulge in tgs, give myself more freedom in gettin what i wan..doting myself, loving myself more..=P

Able to see/accept tgs in a more 'zen' manner..yah...i did..not ALL tho YET. But im proud of myself..haha.. LoL...

Pple said i've changed alot. Some are amazed, some surprised, whie sm jus expected tat...coz change is the only constant tg...esp for mi.. =P

Personally, i do not noe i've changed for d better or worse? But i know, i've became stronger in the mind, happier than who i was, and love myself even more now...wouldnt do silly tgs tat hurt myself or damage my health too much nemore... =)

Dreams, havent change much...im just more determine to reach it...i hope for this day... =)