Its the thinking
A friend of mine told me recently that it's not about the character, its the way of thinking. There's something with the way i think about things. To change circumstances, change the way you think! As usual, dreamer is thinking 'out of the box'. Thinking in 'weird' processes and way. Even myself couldnt understand.
Rationally, i know i shouldnt react in certain ways to the supposedly small stuffs. Yet in reality, i know im feeling otherwise. There must be something wrong with me. I dont like this. Why do i even wanna be bothered by stuffs in life? Find it meaningless. At the end of the day, it's nonsensical and silly. A waste of energy and time. There are many more other things in life that deserve our attention!
Went for a breather. Feel the wind gush through my hair and enjoying the sound of wind and speeding wheels. Looking at the beautiful sky....deep blue with clouds to a pinch of pink and orange. I love the stretch along the changi airport...just 1 straight route ahead with planes flying in and out above you. plus the setting sun behind you. I love this feeling. Outdoor sport never fails to clear my mind alittle. At least, i feel more at peace.
Past by the MOE campsite. Heard the children cheer and some others complaining. It brought smiles to my heavy soul. For that moment, i am really smiling...this is the way life should be. I past by the sea sports club and bar area where i used to frequent, it feels like back at home. Places and activities where i should be...and where my soul is at peace.
Thinking of what my driving instructor told me this morning..or in fact for past few weeks. He asked me, why do i always seem so happy and doesnt seem to be bothered by anything. Im like always in a cheery mood. (hmm...am i really?). I answered him...coz it's weekend! Working days im sian, very sian. He keep encouraging me to do what i like and enjoy. I wished i could just do things i like too, if im born with a silver/golden spoon...i dont have so much to consider. Somehow, at the back of my mind, im thinking....who doesnt like to just do whatever they like, for eg. their hobbies? There are things we HAVE TO do, and things we WANT TO do. Before the WANT TOs, we need to fulfill the HAVE TOs. That's what many of us are doing isnt it?
many thots to sort. many thinkings to change. many clutter to clear.
Rationally, i know i shouldnt react in certain ways to the supposedly small stuffs. Yet in reality, i know im feeling otherwise. There must be something wrong with me. I dont like this. Why do i even wanna be bothered by stuffs in life? Find it meaningless. At the end of the day, it's nonsensical and silly. A waste of energy and time. There are many more other things in life that deserve our attention!
Went for a breather. Feel the wind gush through my hair and enjoying the sound of wind and speeding wheels. Looking at the beautiful sky....deep blue with clouds to a pinch of pink and orange. I love the stretch along the changi airport...just 1 straight route ahead with planes flying in and out above you. plus the setting sun behind you. I love this feeling. Outdoor sport never fails to clear my mind alittle. At least, i feel more at peace.
Past by the MOE campsite. Heard the children cheer and some others complaining. It brought smiles to my heavy soul. For that moment, i am really smiling...this is the way life should be. I past by the sea sports club and bar area where i used to frequent, it feels like back at home. Places and activities where i should be...and where my soul is at peace.
Thinking of what my driving instructor told me this morning..or in fact for past few weeks. He asked me, why do i always seem so happy and doesnt seem to be bothered by anything. Im like always in a cheery mood. (hmm...am i really?). I answered him...coz it's weekend! Working days im sian, very sian. He keep encouraging me to do what i like and enjoy. I wished i could just do things i like too, if im born with a silver/golden spoon...i dont have so much to consider. Somehow, at the back of my mind, im thinking....who doesnt like to just do whatever they like, for eg. their hobbies? There are things we HAVE TO do, and things we WANT TO do. Before the WANT TOs, we need to fulfill the HAVE TOs. That's what many of us are doing isnt it?
many thots to sort. many thinkings to change. many clutter to clear.
posted by dReamEr at
1/26/2008 11:15:00 PM
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