Hahaa, not a very nice 'start' for the 'end'. While everyone's on holiday mood, i cldnt seem to relax. Perhaps in 'newbie' phase again when you know nuts, have no idea what to expect, how where when and etc.. Having my '5-room' spacious , comfy and private cubicle isnt w/o any price. I'm alone, far far away from all the rest of the team...in my own little world again. lol. Thanks to my 'old' colleagues esp A&W, for the chats and surprise visits. It really helps quite abit! =)

Smtimes, its thru happenings and changes that reveals how much you treasure tgs/pple as well as vice visa. And it is thru responses that reveal whether u can be frank. Sm had seen it all and no matter wat, they still accept n love u jus the way u r. Sm wan u to b honest wif them, yet cldnt or not prepare to accept. Sm jus cldnt get use to d other 'sides' of u. Sm jus chose to leave..
Many a times, its really not up to me..i guess if i do make pple feel a certain way, i'd do the best i can to reduce or stop it. But if pple wana leave or chose to turn their back to u, guess i've no right nor power to stop them as well... lol.. perhaps dreamer's seeing, feeling and thinking too much again..

Perhaps certain tgs are meant to be kept to yaself.. To step away when necessary.. To back off.. To leave tgs/pple alone.. To let go when need be.. Life.. Where had all the good times gone? Since when laughter and plain fun seems so hard to attain b/w pple?