Rainy sunday

As if the rain was waiting for me, the heavy cloud, scary lightening had been all over...n its only after 30mins it started pouring down, just when i stepped into the place. Tg was, the 1st tg i saw was .... n i was tking, wth am i doing here? Quite alot of pple ard today..and i fell onto a guy when i dropped off from the roof!!and he thought where this monkey came from!!somewhere on his shoulder or head..Lucky his alright man..phew..so paisei..=n i tot my hands are tired...i went up n do a simple route like umpteen times and i know i can do even more..but later on,i feel no pt, and i came dw..n i realised, i have so much energy left, yet im unable to do wat i can or want. A sign of weak mental power. N i keep giving myself excuses that i just ran out of energy to do it. "next time next time.." yah, everytime's next time. n today, fear took over mi again. I must overcome the fear of heights..fear of falling. i fell many times, but i fell coz i did, not coz i cant do it. The panic took over... next time, next time..
And i got a very strange feeling, and i dont like it.. it shldnt be this way..hope if there is a next time, i will not feel this way...i dont like this feeling im feeling.

Cleared all my distractions today. Finished the whole set of Korea serial after studying 1 chap tis morning. Nice ending..=) but of course not w/o alot of pain be4 that..@!$#!@!...Time to focus on mugging alrdy!! Mon is the day. heh.. Mug on! JIAYOU PEEPS! =) ooosHH